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Business vs Nature. A fish out of water. I grew up in an environment run by businesses, so I have learned about money but this is not my natural habitat. I actually do not like the money system because coming from a nature, I see money as the cause of much of the pollution and ecocide. Over-consumption, consumerism, manufacturing, etc. These are the powerful giants that have been exploiting and destroying nature, from my point of view. It doesn't matter if it's done legally or illegally because it's the same result in the end. Ecocide.

Greed and Lies. Some will stab you in the back for money. They will come to the table with things that they have stolen from others using the same trick. Once you let them in, they will steal what you have, stab you in the back, and then tell everyone you're crazy and you're lying. This is one of the factors that makes me hate the system of money. It tends to incentive selfishness, greed and materialism by any means rather than by honest, hard work.

Social Media. Social Media is no longer social when giant financial interests invade these communities with markets, advertisements, and paid interests. They turn my it into Corporate Media rather than Social Media. I should be careful because they might send their hired agents to censor and block me because I am not supposed to be thinking for myself. Fuck them tho and fuck their money.

Secret Race War. Gene consolidation. The process of consolidating the best genetics of every other race, and then killing off, poisoning, or handicapping the family, culture, or schools that produce those types of human beings, then copying their methods or training once they have that version of genes within their own race. This also involves the bait and switch, meaning that some individuals are used almost as a form of marketing to other communities to lure them in with the sales pitch being that an individual of their own skin color and race has made it and become successful when it reality, they may just be a glorified prostitute in a community where working hard does not mean one will become successful. Instead, the glorified prostitutes are used to lure those that are hard-working and intelligent into these trap communities, so that they may breed with the women there and the genes will then be mass-produced within the new race. They may them be used as fall guys and scapegoat if they are smart enough to see thru the trap, as the community will say that they are lazy, stupid, or negative in order to keep up the illusion and lure more intelligent and hard-working individuals into their trap, consolidating the best genetics they can lure into their trap and placing the glorified prostitutes in the front to give the illusion that one may become successful through honest, hard work rather than by kissing ass and sucking dick.

Video Game Psychology. Video games are very engaging, especially online games, but since it's connected to the internet, they can track your location. There is also a wealth of information that comes from collecting the data of video gamers that is used to build individual psychological profiles based on the gamers playing habits. This game in particular is very interesting in types of choices it offers and the results that develop as a result of the decisions made.

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Blackmail, False Flags, Scapegoats, Brainwashing and Invisible Puppetmasters. The ability to manipulate society while hiding in the shadows and placing all blame of fault for anything that goes wrong on those that attempt to challenge the authority of the invisible puppetmasters. Instead of the invisible puppetmasters being accountable for their shadow manipulation, both the puppets as well as those that can see the invisible strings are blamed for it because they are visible and in the open. It would be like if a rich billionaire breaks up a family. The father might be blamed for working too much and not being there, and the mother might be blamed for not working hard enough, but the rich billionaire that controls the corporation that the father works for and control the prices and the cameras at the grocery store where the mother shops stays hidden, watching and manipulating the lives of those that are visible. Truman Show producers trying to secretly control and manipulate the life of Truman. If Truman gets arrested or loses his mind or goes broke, Truman will get all the blame but the Truman Show producers hiding in the shadows will avoid accountability and deflect responsibility for their actions by instead placing all the attention on Truman.

Assimilation Process. It is easier to assimilate somebody that does not know or remember where they come from. If someone had a gun pointed to their head and they were forced to choose between their cartel or their family, those that do not have family or those that come from a fucked up family will choose their cartel instead. It is for the benefit of the cartels to break up strong families so that the children have to grow up in a broken home without their family's structure. This allows the cartel to more easily assimilate the children into the cartel because the family has already been destroyed and broken. Those that have talents and skills that the cartel wants to assimilate must be separated not only from their family, but also from any friends that they have grown up with, breaking them apart from any strong relationships or strong bonds that their target has built over time. I say this, not in support of those that wish to assimilate and exploit talent, but in support for those that try to protect and preserve real families that know how to raise their children and bring the best out of their children rather than those steal talented children from other families. One side may be experienced in bringing the best out of human beings, while another side may be experienced in bringing the worst out of human beings. Fuck their fake families, fuck their organizations and fuck their cartels.

Mass Surveillance, Psychological Profiling and Shadow Manipulation. They are always watching me and trying to manipulate me while they lie, fake it and play dumb about it. They really have nothing to offer or contribute and anything they do have was most likely gained by lying, faking it and playing dumb. If you fall for their lies, they will steal what u have, stab u in the back, and then tell everyone you're crazy and that it was your fault while they lie, fake it and play dumb. I refuse to be manipulated by their lies and games. Fuck them pussies down the hall making subliminal threats, fuck the cartel that sends them, fuck the rich bitches that hire them, and fuck their whole family full of lying, manipulative rats.

Blackmail, False Flags, and Manipulation. That's Manipulation with a Capital M out here. The main tactic is to lie, blame and false flag. They will fake friend you, steal your things when you turn your back, and then tell you someone else did it. This is normal behavior for them. Meanwhile, there are the producers behind The Truman Show that are telling these pet rats where to go, what to do and what to say. I am not one of their pet rats. I do not play along with their lies. I'm a Rapist Killa. I don't give a fuck if they're a police officer, a cartel boss, or a politician. I'm a Rapist Killa and I'm a Chomo Killa. Fuck these bitchass fakes, fuck their lies and fuck their money. 

Rapists vs Murderers. The rapists have the advantage because of how much easier it is for them to reproduce. Certain gangs, drug cartels and racist organizations employ the same tactics the rapists use. The rapist rapes a woman to get her pregnant and then goes and raped another woman. The woman gives birth to a child. The child grows up in a broken home making it more likely that the child will join a gang or a cartel. It does not matter which side the child joins. The gang or cartel will take the child in because it increases their numbers, allowing them to create more rapists to rape more women, leaving more rape babies out that will continue the cycle and increase their numbers. I think about this and try to come up with effective counterstrategies because I am a Rapist Killa. I have their blood on my hands. I am very proud of that. They hate me but their victims don't.

Giving Up on Love. I met this guy like myself who had spent the majority of his early life trying to treat one woman right. He went thru a lot, sacrificed a lot, and ended up getting cheated on regardless at the end of it all. He was sick of relationships after that and just wanted a bitch to fuck anytime he wanted that wouldn't give him any problems. He did not want to deal with any of the stress or drama that comes with trying to treat a woman right in a relationship. I could relate to that. After getting my memories back and shaking off all the torture and brainwashing, I look at everything differently. I realize how much mass/targeted surveillance, psychological profiling and shadow manipulation is really going on. I realize that sometimes we are being manipulated from an early age without our awareness by powerful forces beyond our understanding. It's more fucked up than I realized back then and even now, it's difficult to reconcile and resolve, due to the complexity of the exploitation. There are some incredibly intelligent and manipulative cowards out there. I think about how to break this system of exploitation even while knowing that they are spying on me right now. I remember hearing once about how families are actually enemies of an authoritative system because strong family raise strong children that will think for themselves and will not want to live under the rule of any openly or secretly oppressive system, and how the rulers of those types of systems will purposely break apart families and target children from a young age. I may have already fallen for that trap, but I do not have to continue that cycle no matter how much they stalk, harass, manipulate, threaten, attack or blackmail me. I rather die than be a slave. I really don't care what they do. My objective is to make sure they cannot use the same lies and traps on the next generation. There are some fake families out here that pretend to love to each other in public, but in reality, the wife has to sleep with the husband's boss because the husband is being blackmailed and has to decide between risking everything to fight back or just keep his mouth shut and lett them fuck his wife so that he can keep his job and his freedom. I choose death. I will not let them blackmail or silence me. I am not one of their pet rats. I rather die than be a slave. They cannot force me to work for them no matter what they do. They just had one of their bitchass cops arrest me the other day and threw me in a tank with a bunch of fakes speaking in subliminals and shit. I still don't work for them. I still don't play along with their lies. They still cannot silence me or force me to work for them. Even if I have to sleep on the street and go in and out of jail until I die, I will never work for them and I refuse to play along with their lies. I freed more kids out of their trap than any of their bigass pet rats ever have. 

Old Men Games. This one old guy who runs his community who possibly supports killing or otherwise controlling the children of his enemies. He puts me in a position where I can get revenge by taking it out on the child of someone under him who had once gotten me. I'm not like him. I would not specifically target the child of someone that had gotten me once just to get even despite whatever may have been done to me. Not to say that nothing happened back, but it did not happen the way that he may have wanted it to happen. It seems that there are many old men out there that take an interest in watching the youth. They even make bets to each other on whether or not they can ruin someone's life, make someone act out of character, break couples up, or change the direction of whatever path their target may have been working towards. I hope I never become like them when I get older. It seems like it's their intention to justify their own weaknesses by manipulating others into making the same mistakes that they had made when they were young. It has always been one of my intentions to protect my essence which to me means never losing my inner child no matter I go thru or how old I get. 

The Brainwashing Experiments. I am always under surveillance. It seems that they are testing all forms of indirect manipulation and control on me. The torture and brainwashing wore off. The amnesia wore off. I believe it was their intention to turn me into a mindless drone that they could control remotely but their experiment didn't work. They used blackmail as their backup plan, but that cannot force me to work for them. I am still under surveillance by them at all times and I have this hive mind bullshit talking shit and trying to confuse me often. I wonder what type of notes their researchers are collecting and how they plan to use it, but it is my intention to prevent them from being able to brainwash anyone else and to try to destroy their entire program. This whole thing gives me Wolverine/Weapon X vibes. Isn't it a common theme in movies and shows that the one being experimented on eventually breaks free, kills the scientists and researchers doing the experiment and destroys the entire secret program? That seems like a reasonable reaction to these very inhumane experiments. It's hard to be reasonable when they're fake. If I get angry like any real human being in my shoes would, they are just going to lie, fake it and play dumb. For now, I'm expressing myself on here because it gives me a way to deal with it without having to waste any real energy on their fakeass acting. However, I am still trying to figure out a way to break free from their experiments even tho I am literally under surveillance by them right now as I type this. They know. They just have lie and play dumb about it because they know it's not right. I don't have to lie, fake it or play dumb. I'm a Rapist Killa. Even if they take me out for it, I'm still real. They're the ones lying and faking it.

Unforgivable. When someone treats u wrong, lies to u, takes advantage of u, takes your kindness for weakness, uses fake apologies to stab u in the back again, etc to the point where no matter when it ends and no matter if they change, u will never forgive them because they have done too much already. I understand that. Now take it to the point of race politics, where instead of being personal matters between individuals, it becomes racial issues between colors. I do not hold the same mindset. We could just walk to where they were coming from and go see them face to face. Out here, considering how the auctions and blackmail and false flagging went, the hatred and blame was not personal because these slaves could not identify who was abusing them or where they were coming from, so they blame everyone that has that skin color rather than making it a personal issue between whatever specific culture or group was directly responsible. I also think about the first child molester I tried to kill by myself. My friends said not to hang out with him because he was not a good person, but I don't like gossip or rumors so I went to find out for myself. I asked him to his face if he did what my friends said and he said he did. I told him to stop and apologize to them and he said or else what, so I slashed him with a kitchen knife. Then I gave him another chance to apologize and he said he would. When I put my knife away, he attacked me. I bring up this story because of the way the scared little rat lied and used a fake apology in order to get me to drop my guard even tho he was the child molester and he was the one that was in the wrong. I was being nice by giving him a chance to apologize at all, but I was a fool to give him the benefit of the doubt. Now, back to what I'm going thru out here with the brainwashing and assimilation attempts, the targeted surveillance and psychological/emotional manipulation, the character assassination attempts as well as all the lying, faking it and playing dumb. These rats will say and do anything for cheese. The history makes it much more complicated when it comes to what's right and what's wrong, but that's not the hard part. The hard part dealing with these pussyass lying manipulators hiding in the shadows that watch my every move but only do it to protect their money. These closet shadow rapists and ecocidal terrorists that won't break their cover and have lots of money to cover up their lies with. Everything is connected. Fuck the surveillance-based psychological manipulation, fuck the secret torture and brainwashing programs, and fuck bitchass hive mind control shit. I'm going to figure out a way to get right or die trying. I'm still out here, still alive but im surrounded, outnumbered and always under surveillance by them from deep inside of The Truman Show bubble. This is the land of many of actors and many traps where it is difficult to separate the show from reality. Even tho I cannot trust anything and I'm surrounded like fakes that always lie, fake it and play dumb, I'm still going to find my own ways to be real, true and authentic even if I have to do it independently. I definitely feel that energy where I will never be cool with them anymore no matter what how they change or what they try to do to make up for it because of everything they have already done and everything that they still do while they lie, fake it and play dumb about it. Regardless, my life does not revolve around them. If the closet rapists ever broke their cover, I would murder them straight up. Since its all actors and liars and mass surveillance and psychological manipulation to the point where one cannot tell if something is real or fake, I am just trying to be as real and straight as possible while they're watching me and trying to manipulate me with all their fakeass bullshit. The brainwashing wore off. I got my memories back. I rather die than be a slave. I'm a Rapist Killa, Chomo Killa, Brainwasher Killa, Slaveowner Killa, Puppetmaster Killa, etc. I don't give a fuck if your a police officer, a gang leader, a drug cartel boss, or a rich and famous politician. I'm a Rapist Killa. That's not a job. I don't do this shit for money. I dont lie to survive. My words are not weapons. These are my realist and truest. I speak from the heart. Fuck them, fuck their lies, and fuck their money. How can I be even more real? Fuck them and their lies and faking it and playing dumb. How can I get more real?

Minding my own Business vs Minding their Business. I try to better myself everyday. My life does not revolve around them. They are always spying on me, trying to manipulate me secretly, and trying to steal anything good that I might come up with. Their lives revolve around me. My life does not revolve around them. They would be nothing without me. I would probably be much better off and far more successful without them.

Pussy Complex. These pussies hide under cover all day and all night while they whisper, sneak diss, hide somewhere and send puppets. I'm outside all day calling them all out directly and daring them to do something to me. They just hiding, lying, faking to and playing dumb. I killed more rapists, I saved more lives, and I turned more kids into millionaires than they ever have and sincerely too. Fuck these lameass hiding whispering pussies. They have to hide and fake it. Their species has only been able to survive by lying and faking it. Fuck them cockroach rat snakes. Fuck their plata o plomo and fuck their hive mind. I rather die than be a slave. I'ma keep being real until they kill me.

Indirect Disrespect. Fuck these bitchass agents and such that cannot talk to me face to face. That shit is disrespectful as fuck. I got my memories back on my own. They been keeping me under surveillance and stalking me the entire time. Fuck their indirect sideways bullshit. It's just more lies and psychological manipulation. Fuck their disrespect. Every they send these pussies to fake it, talk sideways, or lie, it's nothing but disrespect. If they cannot speak to me face to face and eye to eye like real men, they're disrespecting me. It's nothing but psychological manipulation. Fuck these fakeass bitches and fuck their disrespect.

Two Sides. One side is lying, faking it, and trying to cover up the truth. The side I'm on is trying to uncover the truth. Fuck them and fuck their lies.

Being Aware. They have mass surveillance, facial recognition, artificial intelligence, pharmaceutical drugs, and neuro-implants. They're always watching everything I do at all times, even reading my mind. They can use any information that they gather either thru their neuro-implants or thru their mass surveillance. They are known liars and they specialize in being fake. It would be stupid of me to assume that they would not extract information out of my brain and then try make up some story in order to use it to try and manipulate me. They have kept me under surveillance the entire time I had amnesia. They have the technology to brainwash someone if necessary, but most of the time they will only try to blackmail. They have been running harassment campaigns to keep me sleep deprived for nearly a decade already. It would be stupid of me to ignore their pattern of behavior. Fuck them, fuck their lies, and fuck their indirect bullshit. I am aware of their surveillance, their shadow manipulation, and their lies and traps. I intend to remain aware and not fool myself into every assuming I can trust them again. They can't even be straight up and real with me. Fucking disrespectful. Fuck them and fuck their lies. I rather die than be a slave. Fuck them, fuck their trap, fuck their game, fuck their money and fuck their lies. 

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Fuck this system of lies and exploitation. I have to change the world, or it will change me, and the only it's going to change me is if it kills me, so I have to change the world or die trying. Fuck these bitchass undercovers, fuck the Truman show, and fuck all these bitchass faking and lies.

Kanye vs Trump. Remembering the time Kanye suddenly died his hair and ran up to Trump to thank him and shake his hands, almost like he was thankful for being released after being tortured and brainwashed. It reminded me of my own experience. At first, one is just glad that the pain stopped and very appreciative of whoever made it stop, because the pain is so intense and blinding that it makes one forget everything else going on, even who was torturing them. But after a while, once the memories come back, the anger and hatred for them comes back as well. It's confusing because of all the undercover stalking, targeted surveillance and psychological destabilization as well as because so much time has passed and it's taken me so long to recover from the torture and brainwashing as well as the brain damage and amnesia, but either way it's all the same. Fuck them, fuck the secret service, fuck the military industrial complex, fuck their blackmail and character assassination, and fuck the hive mind and fuck the brainwashing. I rather die than be a slave. If I ever get the chance.... but these pussies always hide, throwing money around and send puppets instead. Fucking hiding ass pussies. That's on my life. Slaveowner Killa.

Undercover Stalking. When I first got released from their secret brainwashing program, I didn't get it. All I knew was that my body and vision and brain was fucked up and I was having a lot of issues with my memory and with processing information and thinking. When they sent their fake families or their gangs and cartels and hive mind implanted children to me, it would activate the psychological triggers that they had programmed into my brain when they were torturing me. It wasn't that obvious back then because I had amnesia and I didn't know about the hive mind implant. It's more obvious now because they always got me under surveillance and their undercover agents are always coming around speaking in subliminals and codes. If I could ever be straight up and real with them, but they are masters of faking it, lying and being manipulative. Either way, know that I know, I refuse to play their game. Fuck them, fuck their money, and fuck their indirect and undercover forms of psychological manipulation. Their agents are all around me right now. The military industrial complex may rotate this gang for that cartel or that biker club for that fake business, but it's all the same puppetmasters and slaveowners pulling the strings from the top. It doesn't matter who they use against me. I ride and die for the truth. Rapist Killa for life. Fuck these fakeass street actors and this bitchass surveillance society. Fuck their domestic psychological warfare campaigns. Fuck their mental enslavement and brainwashing. Fuck their mass surveillance and fuck their neuro-implants.

No matter what they do to me and no matter what they put me thru, I rather die than be a slave. Fuck them and fuck their lies.

Family or Gang. They said it was a personal issue between their family and the gang they had issues with. I chose my own family over any gang because I did not want to take credit for any bullshit that gang had done before I was even born probably, or when I was still young at least. Alright, I ain't have nothing to do with it but I didnt try to stop it either. That was their beef, but I'm still out here and I'm getting hit from all sides now because of all of different things combined. It's incredibly difficult lol lmfao. I don't know how to deal with this but I put my life on it. Fuck them and fuck their bitchass bullshit, I don't give a fuck. Ride or die. Fuck them and fuck their money. As for that other shit I got dragged into, as well as the thing about being taught the wrong things... I'm still here and dealing with it even tho I ain't got no solutions. However, I refuse to play that game anymore. If I'ma die for anything, I'ma die being real. Fuck them, fuck their lies and fuck their games.

Serious or Not. If shit was that serious, I think they would speak to me face to face. I think they're lying. It's serious for me tho. All the shit I go thru, but I'm not going to talk to them because I have to play along with their Truman Show lies and I don't want to play along with their lies, so I try to talk to them as little as possible, because all they do is lie and fake it and if I address them directly, they start saying I'm crazy and playing stupid, so fuck them and fuck their lies.

Money and Fame. A lot of these Hollywood lames out here just want to be rich and famous by any means. I want to be a martyr. I want to give my life up for something greater than myself. I want to sacrifice my life to make the live loves of others better, especially when it comes to.the next generation. Martyrdom. They want to assassinate my character and blackmail and starve me out until I give in and work for them and play along with their lies and bullshit. Fuck all that. I'll die to be real, the real way. Fuck selling out. Fuck Hollywood. Fuck the money and fame. I want to be the realist. Fuck everything else. 

Martyrdom. Soldiers were coming in the front door. Upstairs, the men were getting ready to go downstairs and face the invading soldiers. They were outgunned and outnumbered, but all they had to do was slow the soldiers down so the women could escape. That's exactly what happened and that's why I'm alive today.

Cover-ups, False Flags and Distractions. A lot of the stalking and undercover psychological manipulation and subliminal messages and threats are just an attempt to take my attention away from the real problem of their brainwashing programs. The last few years and this entire process of recovering my memories and learning how to see straight again after being tortured and brainwashed has been made worse because of their secret surveillance. They have been purposely stalking me and trying to keep me destabilized so that I don't remember. Now that I have healed and recovered my memories, they try to change the subject and bring up other bullshit and hire other groups to stalk and harass me because they don't want me to expose the truth. These little gangs they hire are annoying but they are just pawns and let rats. The military industrial complex as well as the giant billion dollar corporations that hold a monopoly over the research and development that comes out of certain academic institutions are the ones that I'm really going at. The billionaire politicians and executives that hire from the military industrial complex's database of gangs and cartels to kidnap their political rivals, and then hire certain academic institutions and medical centers to have those same political rivals tortured and brainwashed as well as extracting information out of their brains are the real problem. The mass/targeted surveillance and constant undercover harassment is very annoying, but it is only a distraction from the real problem. This new form of brainwashing is what I consider a nuclear holocaust-level threat.

They Change their Lies. Before, the surveillance harassment was keeping me destabilized and making it harder to recover and heal. Now that I already have, they change their lie and try to make it seem like they only do it because I'm trying to heal. Either way, they have the surveillance advantage and they're the ones know for lying, faking it and playing dumb. It's very easy for them to change their lie at any moment because they run the mass surveillance networks and they're the ones employing the psychological manipulation tactics. They're the ones that got their undercovers spying on what I'm typing and whispering bullshit. All I been doing is uncovering their lies and exposing their manipulation tactics in order to maintain my own free will and not be taken advantage of by their bitchass lies and shit. They always got me under surveillance and they adapt their lies based on the data they collect as they keep me under surveillance. I adapt to their constant lies, manipulation tactics as well as their constant surveillance. Now that I'm not brainwashed anymore and the amnesia wore off, they're having to cover up and distract from their old lies by making up new lies. I take note of it all, better understand what they're doing and expose their forms of undercover surveillance-based shadow manipulation. They're all around me lying and faking it. I'm like an oasis of the truth in a desert made of lies. They're all spying on me and acting and playing dumb. I put my realest and truest thoughts for the future to read and I'm not acting and I'm not playing dumb and I'm not spying on them. Layers of brainwashing. Layers of the Truman Show. Layers of surveillance and layers of undercovers and layers of manipulation. I cut thru all the bullshit in the open even while they're always stalking and manipulating me from the shadows.

Brainwashing as a Nuclear-Holocaust Level Threat. Brainwashing is the next level of slavery. Being able to control someone's own brain. Being able to delete their memories. Being able to overwrite their personality. Making them forget who they are, leaving them as nothing but an empty shell that still has all the capabilities of the person but taking away their soul. That is the slaveowners ultimate desire. To turn somebody into a mindless drone that they can control and order around without any type of resistance. If this was Pokemon, the slaveowners evolved form would be the brainwasher. So the slaveowners killas evolved form would have to adapt qualities and characteristics that allow it to take on the brainwasher; Brainwasher Killa. I see it as a Nuclear-Holocaust Level Threat because it can level a city's entire population. Imagine an entire city of brainwashed human drones that have no free will, have lost the ability to think for themselves, and are all being controlled remotely. It is also the issue of the brainwashers being able to blackmail the target they brainwashed and use them as a scapegoat. The scapegoat may have no way to prove their innocence even if they snap out of it. Character Assassination. Brainwashing is the evolved form of the Slaveowner which is the evolved form of the Rapist. They have many different types of attacks with the main attacks involving torture and pharmaceutical drugs. Once the individual has been brainwashed, the brainwashing illusion would have to be controlled and maintained so that the target does not snap out of it. This often involves isolating the individual and taking them away from anything that may bring back old memories. As long as they never remember where they come from or who they used to be, the brainwashers can make their target believe anything they want. They can tell their target that their target came from a different family, and the target would be so confused and brainwashed that they might believe it. The Rapist, the Slaveowner, and the Brainwasher are all the same. They are all liars and manipulators. I represent the truth. In this war of Rapists vs Murderers, I represent the Rapist Killa, murdering their lies and bullshit to make the world a better place by cutting out the unnatural negative bullshit and and protecting the positive qualities and protecting the true nature.

Remembering History. I went down and got knocked off my balance and knocked out. Woke up later on in an infirmary with some tubes to my veins. After that, I spent a few weeks recuperating. Things to note about that experience is how they were trying to turn me against my family. I had just come out from a coma supposedly. Possibly the second one in a row. Hard to know if that was true or not since I was unconscious the whole time, but I remember being extra receptive to anything that they were telling me, so when they were saying negative things and trying to turn me against my family, I was idiotic enough to believe them at that time. That's why I feel such a strong backlash towards anyone connected to them at this point, whether or not they know or were involved. I do not like being manipulated. Other things to note is sometime during this process of coming out of amnesia and getting my memories back and trying to piece everything together is the Truman Show actors. Supposedly, the guy that knocked me off my balance and put me into the coma was smuggled into this area. Seems strange. It seems more like some form of visual manipulation. Trying to manipulate me into doing something by controlling my perception of reality using their actors. I am definitely aware of this Hybrid Reality/Truman Show/Mass Surveillance and Psychological Manipulation. I am constantly reminding myself of what is real so I do not get drawn into or waste any energy on something that is not real. Very difficult when I am isolated as such and they always have me under surveillance and they can send their actors in from any angle at any time. I remember all this, and I do not ever want to be brainwashed again or lose my memories again. It is my belief that they were trying to turn me into a mindless drone, but their experiment failed, so they are trying to lure me into a position where they can try to brainwash me again since the first few times did not work. I am conscious. I think for myself. I have my morals, values and principles. I am not some mindless drone. I am not some heartless violent psychopath. I'm a Rapist Killa by nature. I have real love in my heart. I am not trying to manipulate, exploit or take advantage of anyone. I am trying to be the realist. Everyone around is the ones spying on me and trying to manipulate me and trying to take advantage of me and lying and faking it and playing dumb about it. I am not one of them. I'm real.

Undercover Slaveowners. They know because they're always keeping me under surveillance. They're watching me right now and speaking in code and probably trying to figure out how to change their lie to make it match my truth. Fuck them and fuck their manipulative lying ways. The bitchass undercover agent on my right can speak in code all he wants. I'm not talking to him. I don't even want to listen to him. I'm not spying on him. I'm speaking the truth. I'm listening to my own heart and soul. I'm minding my own business. I am not one of these fakeass agents that are minding everyone's business, stalking, creeping, lying and playing dumb. I'm a rapist killa, not a professional manipulator. I'm a rapist killa, not a slaveowner or a puppetmaster or a street actor. Fuck this bitchass agent and his fakeass conversations and their organizations fakeass couples and fakeass families and their bitchasss Starbucks hive mind agents. Fuck them, fuck their hive mind, fuck their money. Fuck their lies, fuck their trap, and fuck these actors. I'ma die being real, not playing acting games with these fakes. That's why I put the truth out, because the truth is the only thing I have to offer. Surrounded, outnumbered, and always under surveillance and they cannot assimilate me into their society of lies and actors. I'm still real even when I'm surrounded and outnumbered by fakeass greedy rats that are constantly trying to shadow manipulate me and then use me as a scapegoat while they lie and play dumb and hide undercover.

Lazy Manipulative Slaveowners/Shadow Manipulators. One of the things I notice is that when I am working hard on myself, that's when they try to interrupt the most. I believe they hate to see somebody bettering themselves. After all, they spend most of their time faking it and playing dumb. Instead of working hard on themselves, they pretend to work while they're spying on everyone else. I notice this because I am always working on myself, and when I go hard, that's when they start to mind my business the most. They not only want to assimilate me into their world of lying and faking and acting, but they also want me to be as lazy and manipulative as they are. I refuse. I rather die than be a fake. They can talk shit sideways and play dumb and sneak diss. I speak my truth straight up in the open and I'm honest. But this is the normal shit I have to deal with when surrounded by lazy Manipulative slaveowners type personalities. They hate me for being real. They mind my business. They come and go, but they cannot plata o plomo me the way they do to their own. I'm not minding their business. I'm being honest about what I have to deal with as I try to better myself. Outnumbered and surrounded and they still cannot force me to play along with their lies.

Hive Mind War. I am surrounded and outnumbered by these undercover hive mind agents, hive mind child soldiers, fake families, hive mind employees, etc. Somewhere out there, there is some researcher, psychologist, neurologist, etc studying how I react to their hive mind agents triggers. They collect this data and try to come up with ways to better manipulate me from the shadows. I am aware of the invisible puppetmasters existence even tho they are invisible. Similar to a drone war. They can just keep sending drones, aka these hive mind/neuro-implanted human beings to attack me covertly while they watch thru their cameras. They study how I react and respond and use that information to come up with better ways to manipulate me whether psychological, emotionally, or thru the hive mind itself. Even tho they are invisible and I cannot study their reactions the same way they do to me, I still take my own notes based on how their hive mind agents act and respond to whatever truth I give. Now they sent an old lady. They like to send hive mind old ladies and little children more because it provides them better cover. They can lie, fake it and play dumb much better because if their target responds or worse, if their target falls into their trap and loses self-control, it better allows them to play the victim. This is why it is so difficult being real in this environment. The real are surrounded by actors and fakes and liars. I'm still real even with these fakes and actors outnumbering, surrounding and keeping me under surveillance. 

False Flags, Blackmail, and Professional Liars. I think about the strategy of false flagging and blackmail. I think about how some countries will come up with excuses to invade and destroy another country but blame it on a different reason. They might make up an excuse to they can invade the country and extract all of it's plutonium, but they blame it on a different reason. That is how false flags work. In the end, the country was broken in half, the plutonium was extracted, and the false flagger walks away much richer.

Real vs Fake. Honest human beings always have a much harder time dealing with liars because we leave ourselves open and vulnerable to be taken advantage of by being open and honest. This is made even more difficult when dealing with the selfish, greedy and manipulative type of liar because they will take your honesty and study it and try to find ways to manipulate u with it. 

Hive Mind Wars Part 2. The hive mind puppetmaster/slaveowner does not have to put any work or love into training their students, because they can just control them by using brainwashing. In that sense, it is to the slaveowners advantage to mass produce as many stupid big slaves as possible, and then just implant them with the hive mind chip and control them all remotely like pawns on a chessboard. Instead of putting any energy or effort into bringing the best out of their members, all they have to do is make as many stupid slaves as possible and then mind control them.

Secret Race War & Controlled Breeding. The process of diluting and eliminating the best genes in other races after assimilating those same genes into ones own race. This involves using Pavlov Response Training, Social Conditioning through Mass Surveillance and Truman Show actors, and a reward system that rewards ignorance and selfishness over critical self-awareness. This forces the participants into a system where lying becomes an evolutionary advantage, and honesty becomes a disadvantage within the controlled races, while maintaining a true system and rewards and enforces positive qualities only within the controlling race or if not involving racism, than just the controlling powers. Over time, this eliminates the best qualities within a race which makes them easier to control and manipulate. Race, religion, population, etc. 

Deepfake Blog. I am aware that at any time, they can change the words on any blog, video, song, and news articles. I bring this up in case I ever look back and see something strange.

Re-enforcing Reality. It's always an effort to separate the real from the fake. Peer pressure, advertising, using flashy shit to promote your product is something I am aware of. Just because everyone says two plus two equals five, does not make that statement true no matter how many repeat it. Constant Surveillance & Psychological Manipulation. I got my memories back and the brainwashing wore off so now it's just constant surveillance and psychological manipulation using Truman Show setups. It's a regular routine. They couldn't brainwash me into a mindless drone, they couldn't blackmail me into working for them. All they can do is send these undercover to stalk me and speak in subliminals like these two lameass undercovers.at the bus stop right now. I could look them right in the eyes and they just play dumb and maintain their cover. Constant psychological manipulation attempts ever since the brainwashing wore off.

Manipulation & Surveillance. They can only lie and manipulate so well because they're always minding everyone's business.