Face to Face
One group black, one group white.
The black group I met face to face. We spoke face to face. They left home a long time ago. They said their own skinfolk was too ignorant for them to live around. They were extremely talented and hardworking, but because of jealousy or hate, their own skin color would keep testing them and they got into a lot of fights because of that. I'm like killah, so I know what they meant. They handled all their beef but had to live on the run. Eventually they found a place of peace that they call home. They never want to come back because their own kind was too ignorant and made it hard to live there. Correction, they do fuck with their own kind where they come from, but they do not fuck with their own kind in the hoods that they grew up around. The ones from the trap or the sellouts in ties that run the trap. But they also had some regrets about being pushed away from their dream and what they worked hard at for many years. They had small regrets about not being able to make it based on their other talents and skills, but they were happy to have been able to handle their beefs without being bitched out by the jealous lameass haters.
The white group I met face to face. I knew nothing about them or their history. They seemed like decent human beings. They provided help at my moment of need when I had nothing else. Based on just a face to face experience with no knowledge of their past family history, I have no hate for any of them. However, apparently, whether it for their family specifically or just for that specific location, there is a lot of leftover hatred and anger from different groups. It is nothing that I was part of and nothing I would participate in, and I can put myself in either sides shoes. It is a complicated thing, knowing the fucked up history that has taken place, but from my own face to face experience, I did not get any vibes like that. I don't believe I can be a good mediator because I don't know enough. I can only speak on my own face to face real life personal experiences.
They like to say you're either with us or against us. That applies to many but not all situations. Sometimes, both sides are can be wrong. I prefer to think for myself and get my own understanding of things, personally. I don't know everything but I do my best to figure out the truth. I'm also trying to do this with my post-electroshock therapy brain. It's hard to remember how things used to feel before i was brainwashed, but I know I was operating at a much higher efficiency. These bitchass scientists and administrators hiding behind the scenes watching us on their cameras are nothing but modern day wannabe slaveowners. Got to beat them out and push them aside or they will attempt to start a system of generational brainwashing. Targeted surveillance, pharmaceutical drugs, hive mind chips, etc. Fuck them. I think for myself.
All this, once again, goes back to these corporate systems, extraction industries, military industrial complex, and the Truman Show. If a child fell into a trap and I could get in there and help pull them out, all I need is a rope. If a child was born inside a trap inside of another trap, I would need to get inside of it and figure out how it works so I could dismantle the entire system.
I get put into a position between two sides who have old and historical beef with one another. At first, it really isn't my business. I may have provided my services for certain groups at certain times, but their old history is between their parties. It becomes an issue when I do get dragged in the middle of it, and when being forced to choose between my family or any system of gangs and cartels, I choose my own family immediately. But when their problems and their fighting start to affect, damage, and endanger everything around them, now they are dragging everybody into their business because they cannot work things out like grown and civilized human beings. It's not my fault they cannot communicate like men. No matter how much money and power one has, that does not make them a man. I'm the man.